Tell me when

WHEN!! WHEN!!!!!

Read this news item and then tell me:

HAVE YOU ALL GONE FUCKING INSANE OR WHAT?

I mean, we're even talking fucking Jimi Hendrix here! What a great irony, a man of the 70's, set for peace, love, understanding..... and suing the fuck out of everybody that liked his music? Go to the fucking hell already all of you american record industry.

I severely pray that you all crash down, that all this mindless shit returns to you threefold and eats you alive, to see you in the street beggin for mercy and a few coins.

But no, that happens to decent people who are too good to stab others in the back and to earn their money by fucking people repeatedly.

Fuck you hatemongers, pigs, leeches, useless shit, I hope you starve, I hope humanity excecrates you from our ranks, and lets you to rot under the sun.

Nothing, NOTHING can justify idiocies like this, nada, no ammount of RIAA propaganda will justify that a fucking bunch of assholes steal the music of a talented and giving man, rip it off it's meaning, twist it, and then use it as a weapon to pillage decent people from their livelihood.

I don't know what else to say. Go to hell, get out of my view, you're not human, you're not animals anymore, you're just reflections of pure evil incarnate into roting moving bodies. Fuck you.

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Picture(96)
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Aquel, que robare a quien nada tiene, doblemente maldito sea.

He, who steals from whom that has nothing, doubly cursed be.

Pull the plug.

Ok I've lost my head over many things, many times, but each time more and more I find myself loosing my head over corporations and policies in USA.

And I think it's time to pull the plug. I seriously think it would be possitive to start emigrating decent people from USA to the rest of the world, and let the country rot into nothingness.

Want to know what pissed me off so much now? you can even ignore www.alternet.org for a while if you wish, what about you read the EFF reports some? people are not people in USA, they're shit, Corporations are good, corporations are god, soulless entities are good, and individuals are shit, to be stepped on, spitted on, used, repressed and then thrown in to a ditch to die.

Stuff like the push into all devices by law of a technology you can't see or have public acess to. It's beyound dvd and css, you could always say "then do not buy DVDs" and you'd be right. But then under the cry of "Piracy!!! piracy!!! LOOK stop staring at the kids dying of fucking hunger in the streets, stupid as a wall because there is no education, instead see that I SAY and thus it's the UNDENIABLE TRUTH that if we don't force at gunpoint every person to purchase lots of media shit from us and pay us each single time they watch it over and over addicted to the USELESS SHIT we produce then it'll be the ruin of all persons and the country!!! quick!!! all the population wants to steal all the money in the country! ban ALL technology but the one we produce!!"

it's pure shit.

What's the trouble for all the rest of the world with this? since I live away from madmerica? Well because A) Many countries hold madmerica's word to be law, and follow it with eyes closed, thowards the cliff.
B) Given madmerica's short history of prosperity and economical bounty they hold a sizeably big ammount of the technology being made in the world, and the rest of the technology makers usually follow suit to madmerica to be able to access the ample market.

Given this, it's what I say, we need to salvage every worthy mind we can from USA before it implodes into complete stupidity, so that the world doesn't looses all the technological potential it means when it comes down.

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You know, I feel sad.
Once I used to enjoy Jhonen Vasquez very much for it looked to me to provide a caricaturized exageration of what I hated in the world so I could laugh at it.

I am not sure it's an exageration anymore, it's turning more and more scaringly real. What the hell is going on here? I mean, they're fucking directed thowards a "Brazil" (Gilliam's movie) society, eyes closed, mouth smiling, and screaming "I wunts my reality tv, fried chicken and freedom to shoot my neighborgh now!!"

Go ahead, sue yourselves into extintion.

The madness of corporations

A new meme, the madness of corporations, this should be an easy topic, the larger the corporation, the harder it is to keep it under any semblance of order or logic.

As an example, this is a conversation between two persons (a friend and an aquaitance) I just presenced on IRC:

g1powermac> well that just sucked

Plugh> what, g1powermac?

g1powermac> I got a notice for UPS who can't find the street address either

g1powermac> and whatever the package was got sent back

Plugh> That's nice. :-(

g1powermac> some samples I ordered were shipped back, but I have no idea what samples

Plugh> How did UPS ever manage to let you know stuff was sent back?

g1powermac> got a postcard from them

Plugh> They can't find the address so figure they can't deliver the stuff but they still send something to this "nonexistant address" to let you know what they did.

g1powermac> yup

Plugh> Does that sound as stupid to you as it does to me?

g1powermac> yup

* Plugh shakes his head

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Need I say more?
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Things I Hate

- People who call our tech department, because they need the help of a tech, and then proceed to disbeleive any response you give them, or, once you are finished they insist to keep half an hour reciting random icons in theyr system, in the chance that you forgot something "vital"

New topics

From now on, You'll see a few new repetitive topics on the Blog, they will all be titled the same, and work in a similar fashion. These are:

- Things I hate
- Things I like (To balance the previous one).
- Things that happened (funny or weird stories).

Moby

Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby Moby,

Did I say Moby? no? damn, I tought I said Moby.

Anyhow, are you Moby? If you are Moby, I just wanted to let you know that your Journal, and the writings in your CDs have inspired something in me that has needed inspiring for a long, long time.

Thanks dude, you're cool.

And if you're not Moby, I'm sure you're cool as well, but saddly I don't know it.

Why don't you tell me how cool you are?

And so I sit to write.

And so again, after a long time of saying nothing to the world, I sit down to write on my blog. At times I do ask myself if there is any logic to this, any ulterior reason that justifies siting and pouring a long, convoluted and hard to read rant on electronic media (and beleive me, this entry will be a rant as well, but the ideas in my head are half baked as of this point, so I'll cook them while I write them down), back to the topic of usefullness... Well, who knows, maybe nobody will ever visit this blog, maybe I'm writting in the wrong language since my closest friends in real life have a poor handle of english, maybe someone will stumble on this, or many someones, maybe I'll inspire, or maybe I'll leave no glory behind in these bits.

But someone at google decided to gift me some bytes in a metal plate, coated with a magnetic component that has been researched and built by humans for a long time, and well, I'll use these bytes they've given me.

And just as I write, I sit and think, I'm thinking many things, in an effort to legalize our collection of music and still be able to enjoy MP3s on the go, Juan and I are buying CDs in the legal, used, at Amazon and similar by the bulk. And today we received a bunch of CDs including Moby's hotel, and reading the booklet I discover something very interesting, and that is that I agree with Moby in many points and ideas, what he exposes in his booklet has meaning to me, makes sense to my mind, and besides being thoughts that I have nurtured and fed maybe under diferent faces but with the same soul, I see I share many things with Moby, and there are boud to be a lot of other details and aspects I do NOT share with Moby.

And there are a lot of tastes and aspects that I share with my friend Ray from IRC (hey there, I plan to send you this link when I finish this. So you can enjoy to see yourself mentioned somewhere in the internet again, and taking some more bytes for communicating your existence to the world.), and there are a lot of ideas and things I do NOT share with Ray, and this repeats with every one of my friends, and with many if not all of my admired figures among the stardom in all it's forms and manners.

So what's the message here, after a long and winded rant around it? well that for most of my childhood and a good part of my adolescence (or however the fucker is spelled, no I'm not going to spellcheck it.) I felt alone, uncomprehended and weird.

One thing that I tend to do is forget things, I've forgotten I'd pressume to quantify, about %80 of my childhood memories... Only a few remain to me, hidden under the rubble that is my conscious mind, and these I recover from time to time, not necesarily when I search for them in an act of self volition, but in a semi random manner when theyr indexes are triggered by a similar memory that links to it. One of the memories that I have just temporarily recovered, and that I will loose again until in a fit of boredom and forgetting ONCE AGAIN to read "the joy of tech" in my idle moments, I come back here trodding these hallways of memory, and reading this (if I get down this far) I'll remember this memory again, and the memory is, ladies and gentlemen, that I spent a long time in my childhood, as far back as I have a recollection of rational tought, trying to piece, to explain to myself why as a rational being I was unable to share feelings, toughts, emotions, and basically why I lacked a mental conection with other human beings. In these times I felt a lot of despair, I tought I'd never be comprehended or understood in full or even in part, and I basically felt like I was surrounded inexorably, and unbearably by an invisible barrier, a wall that separated me from the rest of humanity.. And I wondered if anyone else experienced what I did, if anybody else felt similarily shrouded, secluded, left behind... Uncommunicated...

And these days, having forgoten this very important column of my being, this that once took so much of my awarenes, that drove me so powerfully emotionally and rationally, I look back to my week, to my month, and I notice that more and more I've been having an increasingly recurring event of finding myself not so unique anymore, not so shrouded or separated, but that there is actually a glimmer of hope that some people if not understand me completely, at least understand some notion or idea behind me, or some part of my mind is shared with them, in a close enough manner that I feel at long last, that I am not alone.

Now I only need to sit down one day, and repeat this to myself, until not only I beleive it, but until I internalize it, and it becomes a common feeling more than tought, something that accompanies me daily, at every moment....

Afterall, remembering at long last the long anguished moments in my childhood I spent so earnestly hurting about the idea of being alone forever, trapped in my mind not being able to connect with anybody else and share it.... I can tell you, being alone sucks.

And not being alone is great.

My only problem, is that once again I take this too far. I read Natasha's wonderfull expressions of everyday life (See her comics here), and more than sharing the feelings and feeling wonderfull for sharing so much with her daily life and ideas, I feel desesperate to open my mind, and to somehow let her feel, know how much I appreciate not being alone, once again I wish I'd be living in some form of unified Ghestalt society, so much like Asimov's idea of Gaia, as exposed in the dying spasms of his Foundation saga.......

At leats I have my pup, Juan, whom I feel I do share a mind with, whom I closer to than anybody else on this world and who is my cane in moments of difficulty, and whose cane I sometimes expect to be and be able to help...

I'll keep trying to find a balance between sharing everything, and just paying company... afterall, trying to open your mind completely to someone is in a form, selfish, since your toughts get precedence over that person's, and more than an interaction between humans, you get one trying to impose his whole mind on the other....

Well this rant has gone long enough, and has begun to twist in the corners and get confusing and abstract, until my next time, be well, and, might you find your own happyness as well.

Lady and the tramp.

Lady and the tramp.
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She did the doggie.

Doggie style.

A building.

A building.
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I dont know why, but i liked this building, so i snapped it and i share it with you.

He is.

He is.
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Cool baby.

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A new quote

"I have a green thumb, everything on my fridge is moldy." -- Me

More fun

More fun
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Desk fun in virtual cambodia.

It's fun to work

It's fun to work
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In "cambodia"

A new quote.

So, I was reading quotes from "American Beauty", remembering how good a movie this was for me, and thinking about buying it on DVD, when a new quote came to my head, I think it's a good quote so I'll blog it:

"Life is good, if you remmember you're gonna die" -- Me.

If you've watched the movie, and paid any attention to it, you'll know why I say so.

Be well.

Sometimes

Installs are not as easy as one would like.

La libertador.

Even if dirty this city is my home. So ill post pics of it from time to time.

GPL Is not free

So, after all this time of using Linux and loving the GPL I've finally come to understand that it is esentially flawed, it is in fact not free.

So here is what it is about, at first as a yound idealist I tought GPL was noble, a way of protecting the source and making sure a corporation won't come and dominate others, kill the code and get away with it, now I realize how wrong I was, there is nothing NOTHING GPL can give us over other OSS licenses like BSD for example, here is the point, GPL is not free, they are trying to enforce a "Perfect world" THEYR perfect world, the GPL idealists like Stallman think (or at least say with theyr license and actions, because I can't penetrate theyr mind to read it) that ALL the source should be free and that everybody who ever does anything with any kind of source must make it free as well (free as in speech not as in beer mind you, I'm not one of these closed minded guys who think GPL means non-sellable) anyhow, in the outskirt this seems very noble at first, they want to help everybody to share, but if you sit one second and think about it, you'll see they're not actually helping everybody to share, they're forcing them to share, using THEYR style.

So basically what is going on is that the original developers are FORCING theyr view on anybody who intends to use theyr code for any means other than end user ussage.... How is this any different from an EULA from Microsoft that tells you how you can use the software you've licensed from them? it is not different, it's a diferent form of regulation, of limitation, but it is nonetheless a limitation still, imposed by the developer onto everybody else.

That's not my idea of fair.

Let me tell you why I got so much into Open Source at the start. I've had many passions in my life and I still do, I've choose to study and follow computing out of pure chance I think, I could've been a number of other things and many other areas of interest and many of them I still follow as a hobby, That is also how I started confronting computing and programming, as a hobby.

Now, doing something as a hobby means among other things, that you do not apply so many resources to it, being that time, money, effort. Since applying too many resources to a hobby will divert you from your normal life and supervivence which is bad. This made me understand something pretty quickly, with computing as with all complex jobs getting started is not easy and not cheap at all, not unless you find a mentor, a guide like in the old times when since childhood and if you were lucky, you aprenticed with a master of the trade you loved, and learned from him, earning your keep and study under theyr wing. And so it was that I found my mentor, my mentor was Open Source.

Each time I needed to learn something new, to programm something new, to try to understand a concept I didn't have to go out and buy expensive books, take long college classes which around the world are in general very expensive, and try to piece it out that way, I only had to download source code under an OSS license and read it, read the commens, the commands and learn from it... I first learned Java by reprogramming a simple Chat applet somebody else had done while checking out Sun's openly available API docs, I learned C by looking at a miriad of diferent GNU tools, I first learned Perl by reading the old Form Posting CGI script top to bottom until I understood every single line of it, and I always tought that of my programms when I ever release one (I code only in-house programms so far, but I have three on my mind right now that when i have some time I'll get down to coding and make) would be licensed in an open source manner to give another kid the opportunities I had, and it's not that I am saying all kids who affront this world do so as hobbists, what I say is that not being able to apply all your resources to a complex trade is similar to not having enough resources to apply to it, so yes, I'm speaking about poor people, about kids who had to skip school to work or due to lack of money or any other miriad of troubles.

By being unable to apply enough resources at this career on it's beggining I understood how it felt to be UNABLE to get all the resources you need to start it no matter how much you want them...

And I will still license all my code under an OSS license, just It will not be the GPL, because I will leave it to the kid's conscience and rationality to decide if and when they will do the same with theyr products and code when the time arrives, I want to give them a choice, not an obligation.

Now, there is another point to this whole discussion and that is that there are several flows of work being done in the industry, there is the research flow, creating new computing ideas, paradigms and methods (like for example the so hyped models), and there is the economical flow, companies make software to sell that clients purchase because they find it usefull... I agree sometimes the software is overpriced, but it's still a natural process of humanity, you make something others want and they pay you for it... in this licenses like BSD offer more balance than GPL does, since developing new specifications or functionality over any kind of existent code requires an economical inversion on the part of a company things like paying staff, equipment, electricity and so on, it's not only unfair but also unlogical to preted that a company that INVESTED money to perfect a product, to share it in such a means that makes it easy for other companies who have NOT invested money in the development to take such a program and profit from it.

Now let me clear things up a little on the last topic... many people (and I was one of these) feel very oddly about the BSD license, the feelings divide basically in two type of feelings, the first is that if the company bases on existent code done by someone freely to make a commercial product it's unfair since part of the authors (the original author) do not receive any kind of economical reward while the company does...

Still then you had to admit the company invested in the program, adding code the original author did not and investing time and money in it, as such if some people find use in the program and not in the original code it's more than fair that the company receives a monetary retribution for the new program. And that they protect the program and theyr retribution.

The second feeling is a feeling of stealing, of possesion, that someone took your/theyr code and changed it to make a commercial program sometimes can make us feel like the program was stolen, or taken away from us....

Nothing farther from the truth... possible the happiest day of my life as a programmer came when I did the realization that I could license a program in something BSD like and have as many people copy it and reuse it in ANY manner they want... my copy is still MINE I am the Author of the copy I posses (and registered... always register intellectual property for this reason, not to avoid people using your program but to avoid them saying it was originally theyrs and taking it away from your control for real). And if I see any feature I like implemented by others over my code, I am completely free to implement it myself to be used even under the BSD.... as long as it's not patented... and there lies the only hurdle in the road, like many people (it seems nowaday) I think the idea of patenting software is flawed, yes patents might be awarded but NOT for ideas, specially NOT for basic ideas, only for IMPLEMENTATIONS which is NOT the same.

So, the closing idea behind this all is, that GPL can be as unforgiving as the worst of licenses out there, and that the license that says to "Protect Freedom" actually is taking the freedom of protecting yourself from your own hands, and taking it on theyr hands, that's not free.

And this doesn't means that I will dump Linux inmediatly, it doesn't means I'll switch OS and change my whole system. But it does mean I'll think things twice before recommending systems at work now, and I will think things twice as the time of choosing the license my OSS will be released under comes near.

At 28, nearly 29 years old I get to know Microsoft is not the only "evil" corporation in the game..

Boy I was naive.